something that hurts to think about.

i'm entirely skeptical on the notion of god. maybe there is one, maybe there isn't. if anything, one thing that i'm sure about is that humans probably haven't gotten it right, when it comes to god, and what he, she, or it is.

but as i was sitting at work tonight, i was musing about evolution. and i think that evolution has to be true. i love the theory of evolution because of the really interesting things that it brings up about humanity and who we are. whether or not it's true in its entirety, it seems like the best possible alternative.

but evolution doesn't really work when you go really, really far back.

like, really far back.

sure, maybe bacteria evolved into multicellular organisms which evolved into blah blah blah which eventually became humans. i think there's plausible evidence to support this. which i'm too baked to get into. interesting site though.

and maybe the fact that those bacteria came into being has to do with the peculiar physics of atmospheres and objects in motion and all that crazy astrophysics stuff. light + heat + warmth + oxygen + water = life. whatever.

and maybe the fact that the planets and stars and everything came from a big ol' bang of matter, or who knows what. but in any case, what is there outside that?

is the universe everything? is it possible that there exists a 'thingness' beyond the physical universe? forget about why organic matter might have turned into life... why does matter itself exist? if there is indeed something beyond the universe as we (in a very limited way) know it, what could it be? or if there is not... well, i don't see how there could not be something. not in the slightest idea what it could be, but i feel like there has to be something. here's my quasi-logical proof. (i'm such a nerd.)

P1. anything that is oblivion, has no thing in it; a thing being matter of any sort.
P2. if beyond the universe is simply oblivion, then some thing would have had to come out of that oblivion to spawn said universe.
P3. the oblivion had, and could conceivably still have or have again something in it.
C1. thus, the oblivion could contain some thing.
C2. therefore it is not oblivion.

i'm sure that would be a really interesting proof to work out much more correctly than i did. i'm sure there's all kinds of abstract metatheory about infinite sets and their relation to empty sets and whatnot. i'd suppose that would be a proof that could not be worked out in predicate logic, since it involves an empty set, and no empty set can be specified in PL.

i'm a huge fucking nerd. like uber-dork to the max. love it. i read the hitchhikers' guide to the galaxy five times as a kid, and now i get baked and ponder the spawning of the universe.